Your upbringing has left you with the feeling that you should not assert your-
self directly on the basis of your conscious feelings.  It may be that you feel
that you cannot get what you want via open competition, or you feel that other
peoples' wishes are more important than your own.  Your needs are still there
however, and you may be tempted to resort to devious methods to get what you
want, as you have a vivid imagination which enables you to see ways and means
which are not open to others.  Ideally, your vision should be used construct-
ively towards some altruistic goal, but there is a risk that you will be dis-
couraged too easily, feeling that your efforts will be useless.  You need to
develop more trust in your own worth, then you can almost work miracles.
Your upbringing has left you with problems in the area of self-assertion on the
basis of your conscious feelings.  Perhaps you try hard to express yourself
directly, but experience strong negative feedback from other people to which
you are highly sensitive; they may make you feel that you are being selfish
or bad in some other way.  Another possibility is that you see other people
as being strong and assertive, and feel that you cannot compete with them.
In either case you are likely to feel discouraged, and you need to develop
more self-confidence.  You could learn to channel your vivid imagination more
positively, instead of worrying about what other people want, then you will
be less tempted to use deceptive tactics to try to get what you really want.
Your upbringing has left you with a strong imagination, which is especially
operative when you act on the basis of your conscious feelings.  You are
not particularly assertive in the ordinary sense of the word, but you are
usually able to achieve your hopes by using your sensitivity to understand
human nature in depth, and then use subtlety as your main weapon.  You are
basically kind and have a genuine desire to help people, perhaps because
you feel that this is a more worth-while cause than trying to get ahead
yourself.  You have genuine ability, but to make the most of it you need
to ensure that your sensitivity is directed towards some practical ends, as
otherwise there is a risk that you will spend too long in idle fantasy.
Your upbringing has left you with a tendency to feel discouraged far too
easily, especially when issues of self-assertion are involved.  You may
feel that it is pointless to stand up for your rights, as others will use
subtle but powerful methods to render your actions ineffective.  You may
also use deceptive methods to avoid a direct confrontation which you fear
you would lose.  However difficult it may seem to be, you need to face up
to reality honestly and openly, without so much fear of failure, then you
will find that your strong imagination is set free to pursue more construct-
ive paths than worrying about what other people are up to.  You also need
to ensure that you do not try to escape reality through drugs or alcohol.
Your upbringing has left you with the feeling that when you take action on
the basis of your conscious feelings, there should be higher motives than
mere self-advancement.  You are not very ambitious in the ordinary sense,
but you have a well-developed imagination, and if you feel that an ideal
is worth fighting for, you will use every trick in the book to make it come
into reality.  Your sensitivity helps you to be well in tune with your own
feelings as well as those of others; it is perhaps this that makes you sen-
sitive to human vulnerabilities, and makes you want to make the world a
happier place.  However, you are not necessarily very practical, and you
will need to find concrete ways of manifesting your creative potential also.
You may feel quite confused when it comes to issues of self-assertion, for
your upbringing has probably left you feeling that other people should come
first.  As you gain more experience, you will learn that this is not the case
and you will learn to stand up for yourself more confidently; then your well-
developed imagination can be released for pursuit of your spiritual goals.
You are likely to feel considerable stress when it comes to asserting yourself
on the basis of your conscious feelings; you may feel that your efforts will be
a waste of time, or that you have to resort to devious methods to get what you
want.  You need to develop more self-confidence by asserting your rights more
often and more directly, then you will not feel discouraged so easily.
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