Your unconscious emotional response to the world is coloured by the theoret-
ical framework you have developed in an attempt to understand your early ex-
perience.  You therefore express your feelings in the context of a strong
belief system about the way the world and other people tick.  This belief
system is individually defined by your reaction to your upbringing and is
therefore quite unique.  Although you experience your feelings in the con-
text of what is to you a familiar idea system, your emotional responses will
appear to others as independent and unusual.  You become involved in a variety
of exciting emotional situations, and you feel most secure emotionally when
you feel free to respond according to your inner rules rather then to the norm.
You experience a conflict between your needs for emotional security and your
need to operate freely and independently within the framework of a theoretical
belief system you have developed in response to your upbringing.  The two needs
oppose each other, and you will probably find that when you seek emotional sec-
urity you experience unusual and disruptive reactions from other people, or
become involved in exciting but dangerous situations.  You may instead deliber-
ately seek out nonconformist experiences, just for the hell of it, to test out
your unusual ideas and impulses, finding that your behaviour goes against the
grain.  You need to become more organised, recognising that emotional security
can be compatible with independent ideas provided both are kept in proportion.
You are able to operate in original and unconventional ways in pursuit of em-
otional security, for your upbringing has led you to understand that your em-
otional experiences need to fit in with your theoretical beliefs about the
nature of the world, however idiosyncratic these beliefs may appear to others.
You seek considerable freedom to pursue emotional experiences in your own way,
though your behaviour is more likely to be regarded as progressive and innov-
ative rather than antisocial or arrogant.  You will be attracted to people and
projects that are out of the ordinary, feeling quite at home in places and
situations which would disconcert more conventional people.  You will also
help others to break out of their emotional ruts by your fine example.
Your emotional needs are strong and so is your need to feel free to live acc-
ording to a theoretical idea system developed as a result of your unusual
upbringing.  These needs tend to interfere with each other, and the result
is a life full of exciting if somewhat unstable experiences.  Thus you may
find that the way you go about seeking emotional security attracts offbeat
unreliable responses from others, leaving you feeling let down, or you may
experience a need to rebel yourself, by challenging other peoples feelings
with a barrage of unusual behaviour and ideas.  You need to slow down a bit,
for, especially when you are upset, you tend to react without thinking, or you
act compulsively and offhandedly, treading on other people's feelings.
Your unconscious emotional response to the world tends to flow along original
channels, for your upbringing has left you with strong beliefs about how
the world and other people ought to tick in theory, irrespective of how corr-
ect or otherwise your beliefs may be.  You feel the need for freedom to set
about structuring your feelings in accordance with your belief system, and
you will seek out people and situations that are unusual if they fit in with
your system.  Your ability to tolerate being off the beaten track means that
you will enjoy challenges which would deter others, and you could develop
interest and ability in unusual fields of study, provided you are given free
rein to explore things in your own egregious way.
You may feel emotionally insecure at times when your prejudices get in the
way of your feelings and you have to decide between what feels right and
what you think to be right according to ideas you developed as a result of
your upbringing.  With experience you will learn more about this conflict and
will learn to act and react less compulsively in these situations.
Your unconscious emotional security needs are expressed in one way, and your
theoretical belief system developed in response to your upbringing works in
another, leading to some stress.  Until you develop more self-understanding,
you may find that your intellectual belief system gets in the way of your
feelings, giving rise to a dilemma of the closeness versus freedom type.
 intellectual belief system gets in the way of your
feelings, giving rise to a dilemma of the closeness versus freedom type