The way you go about pursuing your conscious goals is strongly tied in with
the nature of your inner sense of obligation towards others and what you were
taught you ought to feel.  Since this sense of obligation and feeling is in-
dividual and personal, and is largely an inwardly experienced sea of various
emotions not visible to others, it is likely that you appear to be somewhat
mysterious and lacking in focus.  You may or may not know that your outer act-
ions are a reflection of your inner yearnings, but to others expecting your
actions to have some purpose in outer reality you will appear rather spaced
out.  You may prefer to avoid too much reality by escaping through art or music
or involvement with the sea, (O.K.), or drugs and alcohol, ( unwise! ).
You feel that to take a direct approach towards achieving your goals may be
doomed to failure, as a result of your upbringing leaving you feeling that
other people should come first, even if you do not feel this at a conscious
level.  You have a strong imagination however, and you may be tempted to
use underhand and devious methods to get what you want.  You may also find that
you experiences disillusion you so often that you try to escape from reality
by living in a dream world, possibly helped by the unwise use of drugs and
alcohol.  Although you may not like the idea, you really need to become more
in touch with reality.  Only then can you use your fine imagination and human
compassion positively in achieving your dreams in practice.
Your upbringing has left you with the impression that you are most likely to
achieve your goals by taking the wishes and feelings of others into account
in such a way that you enlist their support.  You are emotionally perceptive
and able to tune into "atmospheres", which could give you ability in the arts
or the helping professions.  You have a strong fantasy world and a good imag-
ination, but to make the most of your considerable, if somewhat mysterious,
talents, you need to find some practical goal to aim for, since if you
spend too long day-dreaming you will never attain goals in practice, however
grand they might be in your imagination.  Provided you avoid this tendency,
which most people call laziness, you can almost work miracles.
You are a sensitive person, with considerable powers of imagination, but
to make the most of this you need to learn to live with reality.  You
avoid dealing with situations directly, for you either feel that you will
be unsuccessful, or that if you do succeed you will upset other people
which in turn will upset you.  However, your self-will won't give up that
easily and you are likely to resort to devious behaviour, such as lying
and deception, often with rationalisation to support your behaviour.  You
may also kid yourself that drugs and other escapist practices are helping
you.  Once you tackle the core of the problem, your own lack of self-confid-
ence, you really can achieve what you want to, honestly and on merit.
You are sensitive to the needs and wishes of other people, and you sometimes
find it hard to distinguish between your personal goals and the common good.
This may often work to your advantage, for you may well find that you need
help from other people, just as you are well able to help them.  At best
you will be able to work constructively towards realising in practice some
of the many dreams that stem from your active imagination.  You might well
have artistic leanings, or enjoy any form of work which involves helping
other people.  You should make sure however that your easy-going nature
does not encourage you to become reluctant to take direct action in your
own self-interest when the occasion demands this.
You are probably rather confused about the conflict you feel there to be
between your rights to act in your own interest and your obligations to
respect the feelings of other people and society in general.  You need
to consider this problem, sorting out your priorities realistically,
rather than trying to avoid the problem by acting rather secretively.
Your way of pursuing your own goals is often at loggerheads with your
perception of your obligations towards protecting the feelings of others,
and you may therefore express stress in this area.  While you may be
tempted to act indirectly, hiding your motives from others, and perhaps
from yourself, you will benefit more from sorting out your priorities.
irectly, hiding your motives from others, and perhaps
from yourself, you will benefit more from sorting out your priorities